Happy Birthday Mum x

16th July, thinking of my mum as it's her birthday today and wonder what she and Ellis are doing. Ellis loved her nanny so much, when Ellis was at college, forcing herself to struggle on, she would still manage to stop at at nanny's on the way home for a gossip and a giggle. Happy Birthday Mum x

Also it's now been 15 months since Ellis departed, time isn't a healer and things aren't getting easier. We carry on our lives as best we can but really it's all kind of make believe as nothing seems real anymore. We miss her with every breath and that's the one thing we know will never ever change.

Life

Life is not measured by the number of years that we live,
but by the happiness, the laughter, the love that we give.

Life shouldn't be filled with hatred, sadness, regret or fear,
but with courage, hope and wisdom and the people we hold dear.

Life is not about going grey and getting old,
but by sharing good times and the stories that we told.

Life is for dancing, giving, caring and having fun,
so go outside breathe the air and do kart wheels in the sun.

Play your music loud and sing with all your heart,
for if the joy of your life lives on we will never be apart.

Ellis, you lived your life with love and strength to the end,
I will love you always my beautiful daughter and best friend.

My tears still flow.

Hi all, well you may be wondering why I didn't update the blog last month on Ellis's 1 year anniversary well, the truth is, it would of hurt too much. Last Saturday, the 11th May, was the day of Ellis's goodbye service and this coming Sunday, the 19th May is the day that my mum passed away in 2009 and the day that Ellis was accepted onto the transplant list in 2010.  Funny how these dates will never be forgotten and will always remind me of Ellis but there is always something, every day, that makes me think of her. My tears still flow unexpectedly and my heart still skips a beat without warning. I don't want this to change either as it's just my heart and soul reminding me how strong my love for her was, still is and will always be xx

Lisa's words x

This song was chosen by Ellis, to be played at her service. As you know, Ellis's dear friend Lisa recently passed away and she chose this song, among others to be played at her wake. These were Lisa's exact words as to why she chose it.

Forever Young
OK so completely nicking this off Ellis cos it is us! we are forever young! we don't have to worry bout growing old think CF crowd just brought up t live in the moment it's so important cos it goes so quick even if u live t 90

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lP5U4rQq3s0&list=UUOjxPe9Y16nZ9UlUgSKsjQQ&index=9

In memory of Gary

In memory of Gary, friend of Ellis, myself and many others, who very sadly could no longer continue his journey here on earth. The final message that Ellis sent him remains in my mind now, more than any other time.  I know that Gary carried her words with him, as he told me that he takes great comfort from her wisdom and is less afraid of what lies beyond as his jouney will be easier knowing he can follow her footsteps.

Fly High Sweetheart

Fly high sweetheart.

Here on earth you could not stay,
you gained your wings and flew away.
In our heart's you will always be,
our beautiful young lady, Lisa Marie.

For Lisa, a friend and guide to Ellis and I am honoured to have been just a small part of your life x

Cáel Harlem Shake

Just a little something that we put together to keep up Ellis's tradition of mucking around and silly dancing  x

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6Cj7rx2-wY&feature=youtu.be