Christmas memories from our Jodie x

I want to say an extra special merry Christmas to Ellis. This time of year especially reminds me of Ellis she loved Christmas, we would always have a big get together and get dressed up, some of my fondest memories. I was laughing while putting up my Christmas tree remembering when Ellis lost her phone and found it in the Christmas tree the next year. So to the brightest star up there, our Christmas Angel, merry Christmas Ellis love your ssl Xxx

Brittany Maynard

http://www.people.com/article/brittany-maynard-died-terminal-brain-cancer

I struggle every day with the decision Ellis made to end her journey with us on earth.  However much I tell myself that it was her choice, I guess a mum should never have to see her daughter die. I hope Brittany's family are able to find a way of coping. RIP Brittany.

Happy Birthday Jodie x

Ellis and Jodie. Memories will keep you together x

                                                   
       

What a wonderful, heartwarming end to the day.

Yesterday was Ellis's birthday and my dear friend Paula had kindly offered to take Ellis's flowers to the churchyard for me. After laying the flowers on Ellis's 'garden' and tending to her tree, she then had to say a speedy goodbye to Ellis and rush to the hospital to welcome her beautiful newborn baby grand daughter into the world. What a wonderful, heartwarming end to a sad and emotional day!

Congratulations to Nat and Danielle on the birth of baby Noa Rose Gentle-King.

I can't wait to see her beautiful little face and will post a photo as soon as possible.

Life is Beautiful, in memory of Lauren.

This week another of Ellis's lovely friends, Lauren 'Jaffa' Jones, sadly lost her fight against CF at jut 22. I'm not going to go on about the sadness and sorrow and the devastating affects that CF causes, as I'm sure you are all well aware of these by now.

Instead I am going to tell you about a film that I watched, the day after hearing the sad news. I have seen this film many times and it was probably one of Ellis's all time favourites. Ellis insisted it must be watched in the original form, with subtitles, as she felt it lost it's meaning when the voices were dubbed over. As always she was right.

                                                            Life is Beautiful.                                                           Like a fable, there is sorrow and, like a fable, it is full of wonder and happiness.

sad :(

Strange to see Ellis's friends getting married, buying houses and having babies. All the things our angel will never be able to do. Feeling sad :(

Cáel's memories,

Just had a little heart to heart with Cáel as he asked why Ellis had to go to heaven. I explained that Ellis's lungs didn't work properly and as he is a good swimmer he understood that you need air to breath.

I asked what he remembers about her and not to what he has been told but to think of his memories. He told me that he remembers her Darth Vader mask (nippy) and the special ship (wheelchair) they traveled in. He remembered 'Moucha man' ie Kartek one of the transplant team who had a moustache and the funny lady who used to bring tea and biscuits and dance in the room, after going through photo's he pointed out the lovely Davina. He also spoke of Gary and the drawings they did together. He had some random memories that even I had forgotten, which made me really happy and sad at the same time. Most of all he said that if Ellis loved him when she was here then she would love him now too.

Remember what is important in life as it may not be with you tomorrow.

Much love to you all x