Wednesday, 12 September 2012

Summer Breeze

The view ahead is clouded, the road ahead unclear, how can I move forward knowing you're no longer here. There's an emptiness inside my heart, a gap inside my soul, a part of me left with you and now I am not whole.                                                                

"But life goes on" I here you say, "take one step at a time and I will help you find your way. Don't spend your days weeping and asking why I couldn't stay, I am with you in your darkest moments and in the brightness of the day".

So now I need to dry my eyes, and wipe away a tear, for if I can see clearly I will see that your still here. I will feel you in the summer breeze, in the patter of the rain. I will fill my heart and soul with your love, until we meet again.

Thursday, 6 September 2012

Back on track.

Well, after the last post I am now, once again feeling more optimistic and getting back on track, (whatever that is meant to mean !!)

So at the weekend Ellis's good friend Jenni held a charity disco, in aid of the Cystic Fibrosis Trust. A great night was had by all and I think lots of people woke up with a sore head the next morning x I believe that over £1000 was raised. Well done Jenni.

Ellis's favorite little boy, started school this week and Ellis would be so proud of him and how well he is coping without her.  I know he misses her but he always talks about her with a smile on his face and remembers the fun they had and the songs they sang together.

When we was on the plane and Cael was looking out of the window, he asked  "Are we in the sky" Yes I replied. "Ellis is in the sky with the fairies and angels so can we pick her up, take her on holiday with us, and drop her off on the way home". Oh If only it was that simple.

Finally Ellis was involved in a number of different charities and I promised her I would raise money and awareness for these. So now that I am redundant as a full time mum, I now have more time to focus on getting the ball rolling. So details will follow shortly hopefully with details of a Christmas Celebration.

Note to myself - we don't know what lies around the corner, so just try and enjoy life as much as possible. xxx  Until next time - laugh a lot, love a lot and live a lot. xxx